Chapter 39: Mad
Alice’s Point of View
I have lost all my courage to speak and throw my rants to Lyndon upon hearing his message-or should I say Logan’s message. So, when he grabbed my hand and dragged me towards his car, it was too late for me to jump off when he started maneuvering the damn thing. Gritting my teeth and clenching hard my hands into tight balls, I chose to settle my eyes on the road and act like I didn’t hear everything he was saying to me. He keeps on talking about their so-called journey of his damn brother on finding me and Aisle. And what makes me threw in surprised is when he told me that it was Helena-their guardian angel-who help them to find me. Thinking about how Helena breaks her promise, I have the urge to pull her hair. What the heck! It was our secret yet she exposed it.
“We’re here.” I roamed my eyes around upon stepping out of his car. “I won’t going to walk with you but don’t worry, just follow the pathway and it will bring you to your husband.”
“What kind of game is this? Can you just call your f*cking brother so I could get my child back? And also, tell him that if he didn’t give Aisle to me, I will call the police and will tell them that you two kidnapped my daughter.”
“Easy, Alice.” He chuckled, raising both of his hands on the level of his shoulders like he was on the act of surrendering. “You know I can’t do that. I told you, he holds me and I am just here to fetch you so you two could have some talks. And about Aisle, don’t worry, he assured me that he will give her back to you after the talk. So, what are you waiting for… go and talk to him now. Don’t worry, my brother is so head over heels on you so he can’t be too harsh on his wife.”
I wanted to laugh at what I have heard. Seriously? That bastard is head over heels on me? And he can’t be too harsh on me? Wow! Where the hell on Earth did Lyndon find those words to describe his asshole brother?!
Leaving without a choice when Lyndon hopped back on his car and maneuver it away, I started to walk inside the restaurant-looking house and followed the pathway Lyndon is talking about that will bring me to Logan. And after minutes of walking, I met the end which is a closed door. I hesitate to twist the knob but later on decided to so I could finish the deal with him.
“What took you so long?” I hard and deep voice welcomed me making me jolt in place. “I’ve been waiting for you for almost an hour now–”
“It’s just thirty minutes, Logan… don’t exaggerate it. And please, I am not here to talk to you. I am here only for my daughter so give her back to me now,” there was a warning in my voice which I forced myself to make it sounds harder than normal. But Logan seems unconcerned and even casually offered me his arm which I instantly refused especially when the pictures of him together with his brunette flashed back in my mind.
“Where is Aisle?!” I started to walk and roamed around but to my anger, it seems like Logan is really pushing me to my limit. “I will call the police or you will give my daughter back.”
“Is my wife threatening me, huh?” He walked towards me and when there is only a thin distance between us, I stepped back but Logan was fast enough to stop me from doing so. “Should I feel scared now, huh?” His fingers slowly touches my cheeks, tracing it down to my jawline which made me shiver.
Damn his touches! They always make me feel weak.
“Tell me, what’s your reason now? When you were mad at me, there is always a reason behind it. So tell me, what did I do for you to run away together with my daughter?” I didn’t speak for I really don’t know what to tell. I have lost my tongue to speak and all I can do was to remain calmed and composed inside his arms even though they are already melting me. His eyes darkly staring at me are making me weak, they already suck my strength until there is nothing left for me.
“I was expecting that when I came home, you and Aisle will be there but guess what, I was welcomed by our maids. And they were all silent about what you did. In fact, if I didn’t threaten them, they will shut their mouth forever.” He paused, tightening his grip on my waist. “Why did you leave?”
I pushed him and I actually got surprised when I made him stepped back causing me to free from his arms. “It’s not of your business why I leave. Just tell me where Aisle is and you can stay away from us from now on–”
“And do you think I will do that?!” he roared, stopping my breath for a second. “Did you know how mad I am, huh? Did you f*cking know how I am, huh, Alice!” He stepped forward again and this time, gripped tight on my arms making me wince in pain. He then shake me as he threw me his anger when in fact, I was the one who is doing that. I was the one whose reaction is like that.
He was the one who cheated on me, on our marriage yet he still has the guts to hurt me, not just emotionally but physically as well.
“How many times you will be going to this, Alice?! How many times you want me to chase you, to run after you like a pet dog?!” I tried to stop him and remove his hands that are hurting me but my strength wasn’t enough to do it. As I stared into his eyes that has scorching anger, I totally lost my control and burst out crying while grasping on his shirt.
“Don’t cry! Stop acting like you were the f*cking victim here–”
“I am!” I finally shouted, not minding the pain slowly building in my belly. “I am the victim here, Logan! I am your victim so cut your bullsh*t! I told you to stay away from me so I won’t fall even harder but you were too persistent in getting in my line again. You–” I wasn’t able to finish my words when an intense pain pangs my system making me get alerted and traveling my eyes down to my legs.
Horrified for what I saw, I weakly grasp for support on Logan who then get panicked upon seeing the blood I have seen running down through my legs.
“Jesus!” he exclaimed, snaking his arms around my waist to support me.
“L–Logan… my b–baby…” my voice cracked and just when I was about to close my eyes, Logan carried me to his arms and rushed outside. There are words coming from him but I wasn’t able to hear those words when everything get blurry and black at the end.
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Logan’s Point of View
“Why the hell you didn’t tell me that she is pregnant, Helena… why the hell?!” I fumed in anger as I glared bloodshot at Alive’s friend, Helena. With her shaking hands and quivering lips as she stared back at me, she wasn’t able to speak and answer my resentment. Lyndon on the other hand is trying his best to calm me down but it was futile. I can not just calm my ass off here on the hospital bench while Alice and… oh f*ck!
I didn’t know. I am clueless about her pregnancy that seems like she intentionally hides from me. I didn’t know that she was carrying our second child, for goddamn sake! Now I regret what I have done. I hurt her but now, not just emotionally, physically as well. Brushing my hair out of frustration for myself and for what I’ve done, I walked over to the emergency room’s door and the doctor stepped outside later on.
“Are you the patient’s–”
“How is she now? How was the baby?” I didn’t let her finish her words and fire her away from my questions instantly. “Are they okay? Tell me they are…”
The doctor smiled and nodded. “There is nothing to worry about now, everything is now fine. Although, I need you to ensure that from now on, she’ll be free from stress. It won’t help her as well as her baby. As for now, she needs to stay here for a couple of days or three for further monitoring. You can visit her after she was transferred to her suite. Excuse me.”
I breathe in relief upon hearing the doctor’s announcement though I still didn’t forget myself for doing this to her and to our unborn child. After transferring Alice to her suite, I stayed on her side and waited for her to wake up. And I already prepared myself for her resentment because I deserve it all. I am a sh*t, I admit it and I must suffer the punishment she will give me. After all, I didn’t do anything good to her aside from making her cry which I regretted so much. I have waited hours before I suddenly felt her index finger flinch and followed by opening her eyes slowly.
“Alice? Oh, thank God you’re awake!” I instantly leaned forward, closer to her, and was about to kiss her temple when she tilted her head left, avoiding my kiss. It made me freeze for a second but then gulped the pain it caused me because I know, this is my fault. “Are you okay now? How was your feeling? Do you need–”
“Tell me I didn’t lose her,” she cut off, clenching her jaw as she stared with visible tears on her eyelids. “Tell me that she’s still alive, Logan.” Tears rolled down in her eyes which stung my heart.NôvelDrama.Org: text © owner.
I held her right hand and squeeze it gently before my lips stretched for a forced smile. “Don’t worry, she’s still alive… she’s still inside.” I locked my eyes on her tummy and instantly felt the guilt like it was chewing my heart until it ripped into tiny pieces. And then I lifted my gaze in her, meeting her eyes that are now staring back at me. “I’m sorry, Alice… I’m so so sorry.” Even it may sound like a gay, I burst out crying as I hold her hand tightly. My shoulders shake as I cried but when I felt her hand holding me back, tightening it too… I lifted my tearful eyes on him.
She then smiled as tears continue to roll down her eyes. “Why I am so in love with you, Logan? What did you do to me to love you this hard?”
“I’m so sorry, baby… I didn’t know–”
“Shh!” she silent me. “I am at fault too, I hid it from you. This was your child too but I didn’t let you to know. But I know, if you ever knew that I am pregnant, you wouldn’t hurt me, right?”
“Sorry… sorry for being mad at you, Alice. I’m sorry if I hurt you. I’m sorry for being such a dick and making you cry as always. I’m sorry, baby… please forgive me. Forgive me for I have hurt you countless times.”
She smiled and sniffed at the same time. “There’s is nothing to say sorry for, Logan. I already forgive you, my heart will always forgive you no matter how much you hurt it. And even if it’s already ripped out, it will still beat for you. You were forgiven, Logan… as always.”