Scarred Alphas

Chapter 35

Poppy walks in but Colt is

already up and standing

straight with his arms

crossed. He is so fast that

even I’m surprised but

Poppy still looks at him with confusion and then her eyes flicker to me. I am lying on the sofa with my clothes all disheveled. I quickly sit up and pat my clothes down.

“I…came to bring you this.” She holds a tray with bread

and a bit of food.

“Oh! I thought Wa-…father

said I wasn’t allowed to have

any.”

“I know but he doesn’t have

to know and it is not much.”

She looks at Colt. “Why are you in here?”

“She was asking me for food.” Published by Nôv'elD/rama.Org.

He says.

I immediately nod. “And he said I couldn’t have any. He

is so mean.”

She smiles and hands me the

trey. “Oh honey, he’s not

mean. He’s just doing his job.

Alexis here is one of the

good ones.” She walks back

to the door and when she is

about to go out, she

whispers. “Be careful you

two.”

I look at Colt and he looks

back at me too. I can see his

concern.

I am now panicking. “I…I don’t want to but…maybe we should stop.”

“And how are we going to do that? Can we, Cass? Can we stop? Cause I can tell you that I have no will in me to make me stop wanting you.”

He is right. I don’t think I

can stop. I don’t want to.

“Besides…the minute Garret

found out, we were done.

Warrick knows already.” He

says.

“What?! But you said…”

“I lied. I didn’t want you to

worry.”

“But why didn’t he do or say anything?”

Colt sits next to me and puts a hand on my cheek. “He’s a smart man. He’ll probably use this later on. Or maybe he did say something and

Warrick is waiting to use this

information.”

I move his hand away and shake my head. “Then we

can’t, right? We should…I…” I

sigh unable to get my words

out.

He gives me a tender smile. “What I am saying with this, Angel, is that there is no need for us to stop. Might as well enjoy it while we can.

Π

“Will he do anything to us?

How are you so calm about

this?”

He shrugs his shoulders. “I guess because I know that if

anyone is going to get

punished by this…it’s not going to be you.”

“What? That is still not okay.”

“Cass…just enjoy this

moment we have right now.”

I narrow my eyes. “Are you telling me to shut up?”

“I would never tell you that.”

“Yeah? As if you didn’t just slap me and you said you’d never do that.”

I am only messing with him.

He gasps. “That was all you. I would never put my hands

on you like that.”

I laugh finding his expresison funy.

He smiles and pulls me to sit

on his lap. He hugs me and

then nuzzles my shoulder.

This is the most comfortable

I have ever felt with anyone. I like this feeling. The feeling of being wanted, of being

loved.

“I wasn’t expecting you to come into my life when you did.” He says.

I pull back just a bit and look

at him, remembering that

man I met back in the cells.

He looks and feels so

different now from that

man.

My hand traces his cheek

and then follows the lines of

his scars.

“You…you changed, Colt. Didn’t you?”

It’s crazy because it hasn’t been that long but I see it. He

is different than the man I

met back then.

He looks at me and nods. “I

was so angry, Cass. I was so

angry back then. I always

thought that if I ever came

back, if I ever stood in the presence of Warrick, I would kill him or die trying. I wanted revenge and never thought of anything else. But now, all I think about is you.

All I think about is how I

want you to be safe. And if enduing that man again is what keeps you safe, then I

will do so.”

I press my forehead to his. “That is not fair for you. you deserve to be happy, Colt.”

“I am happy when I am with you.” Before I can say

anything cheeky, he

continues. “I am at peace

when I am with you. I am myself. I don’t have to

pretend…to be strong, to

have no emotions. You see

1. me. I think you always have.”

I close my eyes as I feel him, I feel his presence. “I wish…I wish you would have been

my mate.”

“Mh, I think we would have

been amazing together.” He

says.

“Would you have accepted

me back then when we were

young? If I had been your

mate?”

“Yes.” He doesn’t hesitate but

I feel skeptical about it.

“Are you sure about that? You

didn’t know me back then as

you do now. How can you be sure that you wouldn’t have

acted like your brothers?”

“Cass, if you had been my goddess–given mate, I would

not have thought it twice. I

would have loved the f**k

out of you because you were

meant for me. You would

have meant to be mine.”

I smile, liking that answer.

“We are not mates…but why

does it feel like we are?”

“Because…this is real, Cass.

Because we are kindreds.

Because we see into each

other’s souls. Because we’ve

both been scarred and

broken yet now learn to love

again. Because we choose

each other.”

He traces his hand through the scars on my shoulder.

“Two scarred Alphas learning to love.”

“So…this is love, then?” I

whisper.

He looks directly into my eyes. “You can deny it all you

want…but this is love.” His

eyes go down suddenly now looking afraid. “I don’t deserve you.”

“What? Why would you say

that?”

“I…there are…‘

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“What is it?”

His expression changes to a

remorseful one. “Secrets.

There are still secrets.”

I can see how torn he is

about this.

“It’s okay. You can tell me anything.”

He looks up at me, into my eyes. “You are going to hate

me.”

“You know what? No. I don’t

think I could ever hate you.”

His shoulders hump down

and he looks sad.

“Colt, it’s okay. We have

time. Tell me when you are ready.”

Now he looks at me as if he

was admiring me and then

he k*sses me. I welcome his

embrace. I cling to the back

of his head, pushing him closer not that it is possible

because there is no more

space between us. I want

him. I want him to make

love to me. There is tension

in the air. My b*dy burns for him and I know he wants me

too. My hands start caressing

his chest over his shirt but he pulls away for a few seconds

to look at his watch and then

he sighs.

“Serge will be here any

minute, Cass. We can’t.”

I close my eyes with a huff in disappointment.

“Can’t we go for a run like

last time?”

He smiles. “You want me,

huh?”

“Oh shut up. But yes, I do.”

He smiles and his face lights up. I love to see genuine happiness on his face.

“Unfortionetly Angel, you

are grounded. If someone spots us outside, there will be problems this time.”

I give him a pouty face which makes him laugh.

“Stop being so cute. I’ll do

you extra good next time if you are a good girl for me.”

Somehow, that excites me.

Not sure if it’s about the

extra good part or if it’s because he told me to be a good girl but I am all for it.

”

He gets up, gives me one last

k*ss, and then walks out of

the door to wait for Serge.

I take in a deep breath, alone in my room again. I lie back

on the sofa and start

thinking about what he said.

Love…is it, love…

I smile.

I think I am in love. I have

never felt like this before about anyone. I never knew he could be so amazing but then again, out of all the brothers, he was the more

reasonable one. I want to

think that he was telling the

truth. That he wouldn’t have

done the same thing as Ezra. I mean, he could have had any girl he wanted and still is able to have any girl he

wants but he chooses me.

Two knocks on my door

make me sit up.

Colt slips his head in. “Serge

is here. He’ll be guarding you

tonight.”

I want to run to him and k*ss

him good night but I just

nod.

He gives me a wink and closes the door. I fall asleep thinking about him.

The next morning I am training again with Victor. I

try to concentrate but all I look forward is to lunch,

when Colt will change places

with Serge.

“I think we should

incorporate a bit of running

in your training.”

“Why?”

“Because you’ve only thrown a few punches but you are already winded.”

huff, blowing a hair from my face.

“You mean… running in

human form?”

“Yes.”

I make a fake crying face. I

am sure that I am not going to enjoy it one bit but I also don’t want to complain

about it. I know I need to

listen and do what he tells

me in order to learn to fight.

After my training, I eagerly head to the dining room. I

patiently eat and wait till finally Colt arrives.

I think this is the highlight of my day.

I give him a smile while he

stoically walks towards

Serge.

“About time,” I mutter when

he settles behind me.

“Missed me, huh?” He

whispers.

I giggle. “Yep, big time.”

“Alexis!” The girl Julia calls

for him.

She sits a seat away from me

and smiles at him.

“Where have you been? I

missed you!”

“I am working right now, Julia.”

I get that that is exactly what he has to say but it pisses me

off. I want him to tell her to

f**k off, that he has eyes for

me and only me and to leave

him alone.

Taking a slow breath, I calm

myself knowing that this is all my jealousy.

“Oh.” Julia looks at me.

“Yeah, sorry. He’s all mine

right now.” I say, unable to control myself.

Whoops.

That came out very catty. I

guess I didn’t calm myself enough.

“It’s fine…I guess. I mean he is just doing his job. I’ll get him later.” She has an

attitude as she says this.

To say that I want to claw this girl’s face off is an

understatement.

“Hmh, that might be difficult

since he spends ALL of his

time with me.‘

Oh boy…what the hell am I doing?

I can hear Colt clearing his throat behind me.

“I am sure he will get a

much–needed break from

you eventually. I’ll be there

when he does.”

Colt puts a hand on my shoulder before I can say or

do anything. “Your brother is waiting for you. We should go.”

Huffing a breath out, I get up and leave the room seething.

“I’ll see you soon, Alexis,” Julia says but Colt doesn’t

answer.

“What was that?” he asks me

once we are in the hall.

“What do you think that was?” Before he can answer, I abruptly stop walking and point a finger at him. “You are mine.”

He looks shocked and so am

1. I have never been

possessive like this before.

“I…I am all yours.” He now

says with a smirk.

“Yeah, laugh it all up. It’s not

going to be funny when I

break her face.”

He chuckles. “I never

thought I would find this so

cute.”

“Stop it.”

He smiles as his hand

reaches my cheek and

caresses me. “You have

nothing to worry about with

her or with anyone. You are

all I want.”

I nod. “And you better stick

to that.”

“Always,” he replies, smiling.

We make our way to the war

room but this time we don’t

have our way with each

other in the closet. Garret

was angry yesterday and I don’t want to make him

angry again so I go directly to the war room where

everyone starts to gather.