My Heart only Beats for You (Natalie Godfrey)



Essie spoke again by stressing each word, "Lothar could have survived longer. If I could save him, how is it possible that he only had few days left to live? He could have lived a long life. But he lied to you in order to save your life."

Selina felt as if she received a heavy blunt to her head. She was astonished.

Essie continued, "Lothar knew that you would not accept his heart, which was why he lied to you. I disagreed, but he begged and pleaded with me to go along with him."

Essie was on the brink of madness as she continued, "Selina, I regretted it the moment Lothar died. I could have not gone along with his plans but my heart softened. He could have lived if he had the time to recover. He could go back to living his normal life. But, you, Selina, you were the one that destroyed it all."

Selina's face turned pale instantly.

Matthew froze as well.

When Lothar had decided to donate his heart to Selina, he felt that something was wrong, but he couldn't point out what was wrong. Now that Essie had mentioned it, he finally knew it.

He believed Essie was telling the truth.

He never imagined that Lothar would sacrifice his life for Selina's sake.

Essie continued, "After that, I preserved Lothar's corpse and it was a coincidence that I found a way to resurrect him. As long as I return Lothar's heart back, he will be resurrected!"

After saying that, Essie pointed at Lothar, who was standing in the corner. "Then, he'll be as he was in the past. He would be alive again." Selina's eyes wavered.

After a long time, she looked intently at Matthew and said, "Matthew, take care of yourself and take care of the child well. Don't miss me. You should live well."

Speaking of that, Selina's eyes reddened. "I know you don't want me to leave and I don't want to leave you either. But I can't just forget everything that Lothar did for me. He sacrificed so much for me. I can't just be selfish and take his heart. Now is the time for me to return his heart."

Matthew suddenly reached out to grab Selina's hand.

He held Selina's hand tightly.

His deep and hoarse voice rang in Selina's ear, "You can't die. You should continue living a good life. You're still young. How can you die so early? I'm much older than you. If one of us needs to die, that would be me."

Selina was speechless.

Matthew then let go of her hand.

He looked at Essie with a sharp gaze. "Take my heart. I'll repay Lothar for what he did for Selina."

Selina couldn't help but yelled, "Matthew, you can't do this."

Matthew turned around and smiled at her.

The smile was as sweet and loving as ever. "I have to do this. I have loved you for so long. How can I bear to let you lose your life now?"

Before Selina could say more, Essie said, "Matthew, your heart won't work. Lothar won't be able to live even if he has your heart. He needs his own heart back."

Matthew's expression changed.

He growled in a low voice, "I won't allow you to do that."

He could have Essie take his own life.

But he could not let Essie have Selina's life.

He couldn't bear for that to happen.

Selina sniffed.

There were tears in her eyes, but she tried hard not to let the tears flow down.

"Matthew, listen, I know you want me to live on, but this is what I owe Lothar. I have to return his heart to him. If I don't, I'll feel burdened and sorry forever. Don't stop Essie, please." Selina pleaded, "If you stopped Essie, I'll hate you forever."

Matthew tried to control his voice. "I won't let you die even if you will hate me for the rest of your life."

Selina begged, "Matthew, please. Do you need me to get on my knees?"

Matthew clenched his hands into fists.

Veins popped along his arms.

Selina took a look at Essie and said, "Do it, Essie."

Matthew stopped Essie.

All of a sudden, Selina yelled, "If I die, will my heart still be of use?"

"Of course."

Selina then gave a wry smile, "That's great. Matthew, if you are still going to stop Essie, then I'll take my own life."

Matthew gritted his teeth and roared. "How dare you?!"

"Why not?" Selina glanced at Matthew. "You've always had things go my way since I married you. You can't stop me now even if I want to die." Before she could finish speaking, Matthew hurled himself over to Selina and hugged her in a tight embrace.

As he spoke, his voice was tinged with pain. "I know I can't stop you. I know that if you really want to die, it would be futile no matter what I do I know you want to return your heart back to Lothar but you should think of our child and think of me. We can't live without you. Our child can't live without a mother and I can't live without you."

Matthew's words were like a sharp knife scraping on Selina's heart and the intent pain she felt in her heart made her want to curl her body up.

Tears finally fell from Selina's eyes. "Matthew, I don't ever want to leave you nor our baby. I want to continue living forever with you. I want to live with you till the days that our hair turns white. I want to be with you until the days you retire, and you can spend all of your time with me."

She paused, then her eyes shone with firm resolution. "But that would be too selfish of me, wouldn't it? Lothar gave away his life for me. Now that he could live again, how can take his heart as mine? I can't do that, that's too selfish. I just can't, Matthew."

"I've never been selfish in my life, Selina." Matthew swallowed. "But this time, I want to be selfish."

Selina shook her head, "But I can't. Matthew, I can't

do it."

Selina was then about to bite off her tongue to end her life but before she could do it, Matthew shoved his hand into her mouth, and Selina bit hard

into his hand.

There was a teeth mark on his hand.

Sadness flowed out of Selina's eyes.Nôvel(D)ra/ma.Org exclusive © material.

Matthew took his hand out.

He stared at Selina and said, "You can't. You can't kill yourself."

Selina smiled bitterly, "You can stop me now but you can't stop me forever!"

As soon as she said that, a hint of strong determination flashed across her eyes.