MORE THAN A SECRETARY

Katrina held on to the bat, holding her breath as the front door opened, her hands were shaking and she felt cold to her toes, she closed her eyes hoping that whoever was coming would be Lucas.

“Kat?”

She heard her name and let out a heavy sigh of relief, it was Lucas after all, she dropped the bat and stood there, he walked in looking at her.

“Kat? Are you okay? What happened?”

He asked walking close to her, her legs couldn’t carry her anymore so she just sat down on the floor there, he rushed to her side, and held her, she didn’t have the strength to remove his hands from her, her fear had drained all her energy.

“Hey, are you alright?”

He asked examining her, she took a deep breath to gather strength.

“I am okay, I was just scared someone might have broken in, don’t worry I am fine now,”

She said removing his hands from her body.

“You don’t look fine, your hands are shaking, what happened? Why would you think someone broke in?”

He asked, he sounded concerned but she didn’t want to tell him, it had nothing to do with him and she didn’t want to bother him with her personal problems, not when she planned on leaving anyway.

“Nothing happened okay, I got scared because the whole place was so quiet, why didn’t you come back on time? Now I can’t go back, I can’t drive at night,”

“I am sorry, the guy’s family didn’t show up until about an hour ago and I had to settle some things with them since he fell while working fur me, it took longer than I expected,”

“It’s fine, I just wasn’t ready to spend the night out,”

She said, getting up from the floor, her legs were still shaking but not as much as before, she made to walk past him but he held her hand.

“What?”

“Your hands are shaking, is there anything you wanna tell me, Kat?”

“No, I told you already, I just got scared,”

“Alright, have you eaten? You have lost weight,”

“Lost weight? I don’t think so,”

“Yes, and you smile less these days,”

She didn’t feel like she has lost weight but she has been at Jordan’s house and he made her go to the gym with him which might be why she would have lost a little weight.ConTEent bel0ngs to Nôv(e)lD/rama(.)Org .

“About the weight, I went to the gym with Jordan maybe that’s why, and about not smiling, well I am sad, you don’t expect me to smile when I am sad right? I can’t be happy all the time,”

She replied, she expected him to say more but he didn’t.

“He doesn’t care about you Katrina,”

The voice in her head whispered and she couldn’t agree more.

“Have you eaten?”

He asked.

“Yes, I ate noodles, so what am I supposed to do?”

She asked going over to sit, she brought out her laptop, she knew he called her here because he had something for her to do that the others might not do right for him, she wanted to get it done fast so that she can go upstairs, she couldn’t stay in his presence for long without wishing he could just love her, and be with her the way she wanted, which made her quitting even more sensible.

“Are you avoiding talking to me, Kat?”

He asked walking up to where she sat.

“Lucas, I don’t really wanna talk about anything with you except it work-related, no, not that, I don’t have anything to say to you so can we do what I came here for?”

She asked willing him to just let her be, his questions were not helping her.

“Yeah, okay, if that’s what you want, where are the documents I asked for?”

He asked, and she got it from her office bag that had some other files she planned on handing over to him, she wanted to do it this night but she still had a few files to move from her system so she will complete it tonight, and by morning she can give him everything together.

He collected the files from her and sat down opposite her, she asked for what she needed to do and he gave her instructions, she wanted to ask him if he had eaten but decided not to, it was none of her business, they worked in silence for about an hour plus.

“Okay, that’s all I can do for today, I am tired, I have been up since three am,”

He announced stretching out his hands, she looked up at him and he indeed looked tired.

“Alright, you can continue tomorrow,”

She said getting up.

“Me? We are doing this together, I miss working with you, I don’t have to give instructions every time, the others are not there yet, they keep asking me questions every minute,”

She wanted to tell him that instant that she was no longer going to work for him.

“You should have employed people with much experience then,”

“They are good, and they really needed the job, they both have a long way to go but you can help them,”

“When did you become so kind? I remember you gave me hell when I newly started working for you, you always had something nasty and bad to say to me, never appreciated what I did, and was always barking out commands, how did you become so nice?”

She asked folding her hands and sitting back down, she has watched him handle the other new secretaries, he treated them way better than he did her in the beginning and they both only have nice things to say about him, not like she was jealous or anything.

“I guess I learned from you,”

“From me? How?”

“Well, you called me out for being a shitty boss so I am trying to be a better one now,”

“Good for you,”

She answered, they both stood up at the same time, she excused herself to leave but he held on to her hand.

“Kat,”

“What? Do you want anything?”

She asked, looking up at him.

“I miss us, can’t we go back to being how we use to be before all these?”

“No, sorry, I can’t Lucas, I can’t go back to pretending as if nothing happened between us, I tried but it didn’t work,”

“That’s not what I asked for, I am not saying to pretend nothing happened, I just want us to be back the way we use to be two months ago, we were friends and partners, now you barely look at me,”

“I am sorry Lucas, but I can’t do that, I told you, I want more, I deserve more, I can’t keep being your go-to buddy when you need some relief, no, that’s not what I want for myself, I thought I could live with it but I can’t,”

She said removing her hands from his.

“Katrina, love doesn’t just happen, and we don’t have to be in love, we fit each other so well, can’t you see that? Can’t you see? We are compatible in bed, even at wo***”

“Please stop, I don’t want to talk about this, let’s just not talk about this, goodnight,”

She said and headed off to the room opposite the one they had used when they came here the first time, she couldn’t use that room because she would be tormented by the memories of what happened there.

“I have to finish this tonight,”

She said to herself as she dropped her laptop on the bed and laid down, she was tired but she needed to finish transferring everything this night.

By the time she was finally done, it was way past one am, she closed her laptop and laid face up on the bed, breathing in and out, and willing sleep to come so that morning would come early, she already knew there will be a confrontation tomorrow and she might likely cry again in his presence but after that, she would head home to her new life and work on erasing everything about him from her life, thankfully in all the months of their affair they never once slept together at her house, so it was still safe there, took a while for her to fall asleep but she eventually did…

The next morning she met him in the living room when she came out of the room she had spent the night, she had already taken her bath and had the letter she had typed yesterday in her hands.

“Good morning, Lucas,”

She greeted as she walked up to where he was seated.

“Hey, how was your night?”

“Okay, I guess, you slept here?”

“Yes, I couldn’t sleep in that room without you,”

“I guess, you just weren’t sleepy, anyway I have something to tell you,”

She said, she was nervous all of a sudden, this was it, after today whatever she and Lucas have would end and she was never going to be in the same space as him again.

“Okay, you can tell me,”

He said stopping what he was doing and giving her his full attention, he seemed not to notice what she had in her hands until she dropped it on the table, he looked at her with questioning eyes.

“Lucas, I know I gave you my words, but I have thought hard about this, trust me, I thought about it a lot, and there is no going around this anymore, I am no longer comfortable working with you which is why I have decided to quit,”

She revealed avoiding his gaze.

“What?”

“I want out completely Lucas, I can’t work for you anymore, that’s my resignation letter,”

She answered…