Love You Or Hate You, I Can't Decide, Book2

…please excuse yourself

Episode- 281 ...please excuse yourself

** Celeste's POV**:

Next day,

I woke up with the

sharp sun rays..... I sat up on the bed realizing he didn't returned to bed or

me.... now I feel more left out.

I decided this time,

if I be a coward then I will make things complicated in between me and him... he From NôvelDrama.Org.

is the only person I love and he is my husband..... I can't be away from him....

when.... I didn't considered how he felt all this time... maybe it was harder for

him to choose between me and the baby... and hard for him to stay intact after

the miscarriage and when I abandon him in my pain and now blaming him when he is doing all of this

for myself....

I got really and

searched around when I noticed he was not on the top floor, I walked

downstairs.... But I didn't found him anywhere.... But I kept looking, till I came across the gym

they have here.

It's on the other

end, I opened the door and I saw him punching the punching bag. He is sweating

and shirtless, but clearly noticed the anger and distress.

He ignored my steps

and kept up with his workout... it's not workout... it's torture for the equipment...

and maybe himself...

I whispered,

"Ernest...." His movements stopped for a second but he ignored me...

I said again,

"Ernest.... I... want.. to.."

He asked, "Are you done

with your privacy?.... wait... you don't need me.... and I need some privacy now...

please excuse yourself..." I looked as his back stunned, somehow I feel like

crying... it feels really bad when someone says that to you... and what right do I

have to cry over this... I said that to him yesterday... worst than this....

I walked in the door

opening it, I don't want to fire the anger more... but I do turned at him and

said, "Ernest... sorry for yesterday...." I walked out of there closing the door,

as I walked through the corridor I wiped my tears.

I somehow made it to

the outer sitting area, I noticed a picture on the wall, the King and Queen....

They look younger here... way younger.... They look so perfect...

I wanted me and

Ernest to be like them... but I ruined it myself. I sat on the swing looking at

the waves at distance.... It's beautiful and peaceful but disturbing.... Weirdly

disturbing...

My inside is mess, I

wiped my tears..... after like 10 minutes, I felt the swing movement as someone sat beside me, I know

it's Ernest.

He was drinking water,

but I didn't bothered to look at him. I noticed he threw the bottle on nearby

sofa, we didn't speak anything, just looked at the sea. I felt him holding my

hand, somehow this man comforts me.... he knows me very well... and I get amused my

his behavior every time.

After few more

minutes of silence, I said, "I am sorry for yesterday..... I know it's not your

fault... but I really don't know what took over my head... I lost it... I am such an

idiot..."

I looked at him,

while he was looking at the sea. I said, "I know... you don't deserve what I

said... I am sorry I hurt you... but the truth is, I am never ok... I feel like dying

when you are not around me... I need you the most in my life... I love you..." I was

in tears...

He looked at me, and

pulled my head into his chest. He whispered, "I need you more... don't cry now... I

am sorry, I was rude earlier..." I hugged him as he kissed my head.

I whispered, "You

have right to be angry too... I made mistake...."

He chuckled and said,

"Now... stop this...let's have breakfast... I know you didn't eat well last night...

you need nutrition..." he was hugging me tighter..

I said, "You stink...."

He looked at me as we parted, he said, "hu?"

I said, "You are

sweaty.. it stinks..." he chuckled and said, "you can't quit being naughty but

you are forgiven since you are talking to me like always.. remember I get

worried when I don't hear you.... never do that again.." I nodded.

Ernest wiped my tears

and said, "smile, laugh... nag at me but don't be the way you were for few day..

promise?" I nodded and whispered, "Promise.." he smiled and said, "Love, now... I

want you rest... I might need a shower... I will be back.... And we can have

breakfast.. and I will cook it for you..." he got up.

But I complained,

"You suck at cooking... I am sure last night the dinner was not made by you..." he

looked away scratching his head and said, "then wait for me.. and teach me to

cook..." I smiled at him, he leaned to kiss my lips lightly. He said, "You are

beautiful... smile more..." how much he loves me... answer is more than himself.. and

I love him more than myself.