Enough For Him

Makes me sick. Where were these thoughts last night.

My hands pushed him back, I had no control over my anger, my frustration.

” Don’t forget your place” he said lifting up my chin and staring down at me. Last year I would have fallen weak to his charms.

My fingers moved to the over exaggerated diamond ring on my finger.

I knew he was watching. ” don’t” he said, reaching for my hands.

I turned around and continued sliding the ring off my finger. Once it was off, I threw it at his chest. It dropped to the floor right between his legs.

” I won’t sit back and let you treat me like shit Leon. I will never take you away from your son because I’m not a monster but you’re going to have to fight for his time. He deserved your time and love but you’d rather cheat on us”

I moved around his body reaching for the door.

” I can provide for him more than enough. What makes you think the judge will let you have full rights to our son” he said just before I opened the door.

His words made me stop.

” you’re a intelligent man Leon but that was honestly the most stupidest thing you could have ever said”

With those words registering in his brain I walked out the office. My head held high and my future to look forward to now.

My brother George, helped me move into my mother’s house all day. When mum saw her two children together helping each other out she was happy. From many problems growing up I guess this was a miracle.

Myself and George used to butt heads all the time and the main reason for this was because of our parent’s divorce. It wasn’t easy but when we matured and understood more about the problems they were having we started to appreciate each other a bit more.

We split up to live with one of our parents and that meant we lost our communication but when we got older we tried better to be in each other’s lives.

“Are you staying for dinner ?” Mum asked George as he fixed my mirror to the wall. Mum stood at the door with an apron on. She smelt like garlic.

She was giving him a choice?

He turned to her ” of course ma, I have to leave at 7 though I have a date” he said.

Even I was surprised at this. Since when does my brother go on dates?

“Oh, lovely okay well I will just set the table up and you both come down” I smiled at her as she turned and left.

The happiness she had because we were both here was something I missed seeing on my mom’s face.

She left soon after and walked down to the kitchen.

” what are you going to do about Jayson,” George asked me after finishing up the mirror.

Jayson was downstairs napping.

I sighed ” I’m not sure I guess if he really wants him in his life I will let him see Jayson, I’m not going to stop Leon from seeing his son. Maybe I can let Leon have him on weekend’s but I would want to be sure that Jay is safe”

Leon doesn’t have much experience with being a father so I knew that I had to be 100% that he can handle a baby.

“He doesn’t deserve that. If only he wore a condom like a real man you wouldn’t be put in this situation”

I glared at him.

” don’t talk like it was an accident. Jay is my son and he is the greatest gift so keep your thoughts to yourself ” I said angrily at him.

” you’re right I’m sorry,” he says coming over to me and wrapping his arms around my shoulders.

The faint call of my mum from downstairs tore us apart and we headed down to eat as a family.

” you can’t blame yourself, honey, Leon was never the family man you wanted he was your first true love so it’s going to be hard” Mum says as I spoon feed my baby his favourite, mashed vegetables.

I ignored George’s sarcastic cough.

“That man only thinks about money and sex” Mom whacked George for saying that.

He just continued to eat.

“It’s true, at least now you can finally start enjoying life and living for you,” he said.

Mums eyes perked up. ” oh darling that’s true you don’t have to worry about little jay it’ll give me the chance to spend time with my first grandbaby”This belongs © NôvelDra/ma.Org.

I instantly felt guilty because I didn’t let mum see jay that often.

” don’t look at me like that ” George says to mum. Since George is 5 years older than me we all expected him to be the first one with a baby.

But the boy is picky.

” speaking of babies, who’s this date with tonight,” I asked him.

” how the hell is that related” he blurted as he took a drink.

I smiled ” well son” my mum starts to say only to be glared at by her son.

” it’s one date. I’m not thinking about babies till much later” he says which doesn’t go down well with mom.

The woman wants 4 grandchildren by the time she’s 60. Call it desperate.

” you don’t want to be like my brother George, being old with children isn’t all great” mum explains to him. We’ve only heard this story ten times.

Great.

” well would you look at the time,” he said looking at his phone showing that it was nearly seven.

Time for his hot date.

Mum reluctant said goodbye, holding onto George for extra long. She came back down and sat with me. My boy showed her his gums and laughed which instantly cheered her up.