Alpha's Blind Luna



A week after the death of Alpha Niles, Vale and I welcomed Alpha Evan and his Luna Naomi, with their pup. We had already taken care of the vampires and it turns out, there were only a few that were holed up in a building just outside of the pack territory. Vale already had passed on the title of Alpha, introducing the whole pack to their new Alpha. I had never seen so much elation. Suddenly, the pack turned back into a place they could call home.

We were still here though, trying to sort out the ridiculous amount of issues that the previous Alpha and Beta left behind. There wasn't much I could help with so I started up on a new routine for the warriors so they would be better off then the ridiculous routine they had previously. I also took over the scheduling for the patrols in the area.novelbin

From what I understood, the two High Council members were also stuck at the witches coven, trying to sort out some other issues there. I had stopped by a couple times to see the kids and they seemed very happy to see me every time, even if the rest of the coven was wary of a werewolf in their mix. Lately, it seemed far busier. It was nearing on a month since the handover.

We were in the middle of a meeting with Alpha Evan and Luna Naomi when my phone vibrated. Looking down, my brow furrowed. I nodded to Vale and stood up, heading out of the room. Putting the phone to my ear, I answered it.

"Danger, it's been a while."

He was quiet for a moment. "We found Ezekiel."

My body froze and my eyes widened. Heart pounding in my chest, I walked further down the hall. "What? How...when...where?"

There was a long pause. "Pipsqueak tracked down one of the facilities in Russia. I drove with Auri and Jax. We...we went in with no real plan. Auri refused to wait."

I swallowed. "Did you get him?"

Simon's long pauses were bothering me. "Yes. He's back at the pack house. I don't know if you remember how Auri was when she came back from them, but he...he was on his way there." Taking a deep breath, he continued. "Morgan is helping him. He said he helped Auri in the beginning and so he knows how to treat Ezekiel. He's...struggling but he can talk. Currently, he's very skittish and doesn't like to be touch. But Morgan says it will pass. He also suffers from bad nightmares."

My lips pursed in a thin line. I remembered the nightmarish screams of Auri when she was on Nova. It was something you never forget. "But he's...?" "In one piece. Vale will need to be careful for a while. Take it slow with him. But Morgan says he will be right as rain in the next few months."

I sighed, leaning against the wall. "Thank the goddess. How is Auri?"

This time the silence stretched out further. Simon didn't say anything and my hand started to shake.

"Simon?" My voice cracked.

"I...she...we..." He struggled and I heard the pain in his voice.

I slid down to the floor, my head burying in my knees. "Tell me she is okay Simon. Please. Tell me she is okay."

"I...I can't...Hector. I'm sorry."

Choking out a silent sob, I shook as Rydere howled in the back of my mind. "You were supposed to protect her..." I wanted to sound mad but I couldn't even muster it. It came out more like a whisper, a plea.

"I know. I know and I..." He couldn't finish.

Finally, the silent crying wasn't enough and I sobbed into my arm. I couldn't care less if someone walked by seeing a grown ass wolf on the floor sobbing. Auri had been through too much already. She didn't need anything else.

"What...?" I couldn't even finished my sentence.

"We can go into the details when you're back. I don't...we...need time...Jax too. He's...we're struggling."

Leaning my head back against the wall, I closed my eyes. "We will be home soon."

"Good. We need you."

Taking a haggard breath, I hung up the phone and covered my eyes with my arm. Tears streamed down the sides of my face. We were too old for this. We were supposed to retire. Live out our dreams in the Italian countryside. Not this. Never this.

We can't lose her, Hector. We can't... Rydere didn't finished as he howled in the back of my mind. He retreated further and further away. I couldn't stop him. Taking a deep breath, I stood up. Walking back into the meeting room, all the men looked at me, various looks of confusion.

“Alpha King, may I speak to you...privately?"

Vale stood up and nodded. "I'll be right back."

Pulling back, I didn't meet anyones eyes as I still had tears leaking out. Opening the door and heading out, Vale shut the door behind him. We walked to his new bedroom. It was five times larger than the old one with a desk, couch, king size bed, and dresser.

"Hector, what's..."

I cut him off. "They found Ezekiel."

Vale froze. "Is he...is he okay? What did they...is he...?"

"He is back at the pack house. Simon says, he will need to be treated with kid gloves for a few months. Apparently, whatever they did to him has really messed him up. So he will need to be handled lightly. Morgan is helping, since he helped with Auri before."

Vale nodded, a true smile gracing his face. "Goddess, thank you. We can wrap this shit up and go home."

I nodded.

"Why...don't you look happy?" His voice was accusatory and I balled up my fists.

"Do you not care how they got him?"

Vale chuckled hollowly. "Honestly, no...I don't. My mate is home. He is safe. I don't care what methods it took to save him. I would go to the ends of the earth for him and I expect nothing less from everyone else."

Rydere roared and came forward, trying to lash out at Vale; angry and hurt. I gripped the bedpost, holding Rydere back. Vale looked slightly shocked at my lack of control and I turned, pulling open the door.

"That is all I wanted to tell you. Excuse me, your majesty." I managed to growl the words out before slamming the door behind me and taking off. 'We should have ripped his head off for that!' Rydere yelled at me.

'It doesn't matter. He wouldn't understand, Rydere. It's his mate. He will always put his mate first before anyone.'

'But what of our mate?! Our love?! What of her?!' He howled in despair.

Shaking my head, I reached the kitchen door and quickly shifted as I ran out into the field. I needed to be away. It was too much. This feeling was too much. There were too many questions. Too many things I didn't understand. The only thing I did know was that Auri would sacrifice herself for anyone on her pack. If that's what she did...if that...

'We would feel it though...right? If she was...'

I growled back at him. 'Of course we wouldn't! We aren't mated, Rydere! We aren't her fated mate. We wouldn't feel shit. We are just left in the dark. Every fucking time. She decides to go and never fucking think before leaping.'

I howled, the mournful sound echoed through the forest. It was echoed by some of the other warriors. They were saying sorry. Being empathetic to my pain but it didn't help. Nothing would help. I tried to control the physical pain that rippled through me but I couldn't.

Finally, I was forced to shift and I threw up. On all fours, I heaved until there was nothing left but the sad cries and choked sobs. Collapsing, I curled up into a ball. All this physical strength and yet I could do nothing. I couldn't save her. Yet again. I was a fucking failure. Again. My cries turned to screams until my voice went hoarse. Eyes closing, I felt darkness take over.

My mind was pulled back into my body when I felt a force on my consciousness. Vale was trying to force his way into my mind. At first, I pushed him away. Trying to be alone with Rydere. The two of us curled up together in our mind. Lost in the pain.

'Hector Mendez! Where the fuck are you?' Vale hollered.

I turned in my mind, curling up with Rydere. 'Leave him. I don't want to deal with him.'

'As much as I would love to kick the shit out of him...he is our king, Hector.'

I snorted. 'Then let him order me. Until then, that pup can leave us the hell alone.'

Rydere nodded and he now helped force Vale out of our mind. We sank back into the darkness that we came from.

"Boys! I found him! Fuck. What happened?"

My eyes fluttered open and the day had turned to night. The air was cool but it had been the first time I heard anything other than the local wildlife around me. Hell, even a deer had come to nibble on my ear, realizing I was no threat to them or anyone.

"Hector..." the voice was coming from Alpha Evan.

His hand touched my shoulder and made me realize just how far my temperature had dropped. His hand was like a furnace.

"Can we get a blanket? He's freezing."

Slowly, I stirred. "It's fine...I don't need it..." My voice was hoarse still but I shrugged off his hand. I wanted no comfort. I wanted nothing to do with anyone. All I wanted was to run away.

"I don't know what happened, but we still need you, Beta. Please. Alpha King Vale has been worried sick about you."

My laugh came out hollow. "Sure he was. Well, I guess we can't keep the king waiting, now can we." Sarcasm and anger dropped from my words. So much so, Alpha Evan took a step back.

Slowly, I tried to stand but my knees buckled. Alpha Evan started to make for me but I just shifted into my wolf form instead. Rydere didn't want to step forward so I just slowly padded next to the group of wolves who apparently had been looking for me.

No one said anything as we walked back. I didn't realize just how far out I had been when, after a half hour, we finally crossed into the territory of the pack. We continued our walk to the castle.

Vale had his arms crossed, leaning against the front door. Luna Naomi also was standing out front as well. Taking a deep breath, I steeled myself to not bite Vale's head off. Auri would never forgive us. He also didn't know at what cost, we never told him. It might have been unfair but I was scared that his reaction was going to be the same. That he would expect Auri to give her all for him. If that were the case, I would end up killing him where he stood.

"Where the fuck have you been? I've been trying to contact you and I get steel walled."

I continued passed him, not shifting.

He growled. "Shift, Hector!"

The order rippled through me. Chuckling, it was nowhere near the power that Auri put behind it but I still obeyed. As I shifted, my legs buckled under me and I fell to my knees, almost passing out.

"Beta Hector!" Luna Naomi came up to me and tried to make sure I wasn't hurt.

I shook my head. "Please don't mind me, Luna. I didn't mean to make you worry."

"What the hell, Hector?"

My eyes fell on Vale and I glared at him. "Did you need something from me, my king?"

Vale seemed slightly shocked. "I was wondering where you were."

"In the forest, my king. Is there anything further you have need of me or may I go to bed?"

Everyone around us shifted uncomfortably but I held Vale's stunned stare with my own fiery anger.

"N...no...nothing further."

I bowed, my face nearly hitting the ground. "Then excuse me, my king." I slowly got up, trying to steady myself.

My legs started to wobble and I saw Luna Naomi start too come over. Shaking my head, I gave her a sad smile.

"Please don't mind this old man, Luna Naomi. I will be fine."

As I walked up the stairs, I felt more strength come to me. Making my way down the halls, I opted for the tiny room I first got rather than the big one

next to Vale. For some reason, the large room only seemed empty now. It seemed too good. Too luxurious. I wanted to be in a hole and swallowed up

by it.

The small room was perfect for that hole. The tiny shower left no room to feel lonely. It was too much of a struggle to get comfortable, to fit, for it to

make me feel worse. My eyes closed as I laid on the tiny bed, my legs hanging off. The last of my thoughts as I slipped back unconscious were of my

love.